shewey baby its cold outside....

and it was so nice to wrap a scarf around my neck on this chilly sunday.  it became cold overnight and its in the mid 40s outside (not extremely cold but quite a change for nashville).  today began perfectly with the bongo basic-only $5 for 2 eggs, the best hashbrowns on the planet, a pile of toast and a cup of joe.  perfect.

visited a woman who has become a great friend.  our dogs were the first to hit it off splendidly then i finally saw the light that she may be someone i'd like to investigate further and boy she is and girl's got spunk!  lived in every major city-portland, or the longest.  she is the runt of the litter so sure knows how to stick up for herself.  she's an independent, crafty interior designer.  love it!!

as for me i have now lit some incense which has cooled me off from realizing what lack of money i have in my bank account right now after a fun weekend.  looks like i will be eating ramen this week if i'm lucky.  i've done it before and can certainly do it again!  have you ever visited ramenlicious.com? well you should-you may even be enlightened :)

and here it is folks...my sunday creation.  this is my sanity and church all tied together.  shutting out the world for an evening for some blissful creative solitude.  all of my necklaces have been in one knot shamble for at least 6 months so i devised a plan.  little piece of lattice (3.50 at lowes) some stain and nails i had lying around the house-and there quickly became my necklace hanger/wall art!  if you like it try it just ummm credit me :) all in good fun

cheers to sundays

quito

reading the daily news i read quito, ecuador is in danger.  police officers are revolting against president correa's law just passed. the officers shut down the airport and the capital city of ecuador.  rebels are looting and the military is attempting to regain democratic control of the passionate country.

i hope my good friend anna in canoa is safe.  she is resourceful and knows how to hide in the woods for weeks.  i know this because i've done it with her.  love you anna.

geez louize

this is my very first rant on a raving blog and i'm nervous.  my day began with at least a ten minute snooze then quickly led to being surrounded my hundreds of nurses in the vanderbilt courtyard racing into a box to 'clock in'.  it was 6:40 am.
vanderbilt is the biggest employer in nashville with the biggest ego.
everyday enters hundreds of 'first year' med students who are younger than I and believe they are as old as Mahatma Ghandi.  its disgusting to see them enter rooms where the individual patient is terminal and they proceed to diagnose after having no field experience. its degrading to mankind.
yeah yeah-some present-well how else are they supposed to learn? i dont know the answer but at least dont send them in to kill the next. (oops....accidentally)

i am able to get the most one on one time with the patients i am assigned on the daily which is one of the more fortunate aspects.  met a 54yr old man today who had fallen off a ladder and crushed the entire right side of his body.  thank god only broken bones.  first time he had ever been in a hospital and builds homes for a living.  he was thankful i was patient and proceeded to curse about my co-workers because they hadnt been.  i knew what he was talking about because i've witnessed their impatience for the last two years.  i asked him to walk for the first time since he had been admitted 'for me' and he grunted and screamed and hobbled to a chair.  first time he had been out of bed in 8 days with a stage 2 pressure ulcer on his bottom.  he had refused for everyone else who hadnt shown him the respect he deserved or various other excuses.

i also met or rather never formally met a patient who i cleaned throughout the day because he is incontinent.  the nurse gave him enough narcotics to sedate an elephant but his heart rate was still in the 160s because he is a drug addict.  every time we tried to help him he spat in our faces but we could not let him legally lie in his own urine and shit.  he was admitted after a car accident and he is 28 yrs old.  i havent seen a visitor enter his room.  i wonder if he has any family?

i did meet a man whom i hope his eyes never show up in a nightmare.  he was admitted after his entire abdominal wall had caved from being stabbed.  he was stabbed by the husband of the wife he was screwing.  he looked at me like i was a little girl he wanted to rape.  i want/wanted to choke him but had to smile and nod because i have to keep this job for now.

i dread everyday walking a mile where i pay to park to get paid barely minimum wage for a job that i despise but i know i'm not the only one in this boat. i'm lucky to have a job at all.
 i wish things were different.  i have to change my career.